There is no time

There is no time, We’ll never know about tomorrow. We are all live in mystery, mystery of question marks. What are we searching for? You. I know you love me so much and so do I ,I hurt you so bad with my limits. I am limited. I’m conditionally limited. I am so sorry. I am wishing every single day since I found you. If I could live by your side every single day , your exhaled breath buzzing on my ears , your inhaled breath when your asleep. I’d like to make myself believe that I can give you my best. Does it broken? No. There’s no time to say I love you cause I’m too scared that I might lose you that I might go nowhere. It’s Iike I’m magically stoned on the spot where our minds as one. Why does this feeling comes through my mind,you are running through my brain. Lucifer might win the temptations to hate, to makes us confused , to make us separated. Believe in me it’s just on our mind. We are believing on each other that’s why does love becomes everlasting. Don’t put too much hopes on me and I’m not saying that I might cheat on you. This is me with my limits. I am surely know you noticed it and I’m exactly know you are understand. Our love is just hanging by a thread, but I’ll sew it up to become a long sturdy string. I am trying . I will try. There is no time, I love you right here right now cause you know what? I always afraid of tomorrow.

Rupa

Rupa

Senja

Selalu terdiam bisu menatap nestapa

Bercumbu dengan angin

Menyapu dingin

Terlalu samar untuk diraba

Terlalu buta untuk disapa

Kalau ada dewi perangkai bunga duri

Jangan jadikan aku kalungnya

Sudah cukup perih disini

Rupa

Malam

Selalu teriak pada bulan

Bersenggama dengan bising

Terjelaga dalam dosa

Jika ada Engkau mengizinkan

Biarkan aku tetap sendiri di sini menanti mentari

Tapi jangan biarkan aku meratap kosong

Rupa

Selasa

Tekuk sepiku ini.

trip to PAVI

well what a tiring day,phew..

i came to campus today as usual began with alfred's class on monday which is creative studies.I thought we will stuck on the class and do the lesson as usual,but suddenly alfred got a phonecall and told us it urgent,we should go to pavillion to accompanied the diploma class to make a deepavillion,it's like an indian art.So there's a picture on the floor cover with a plain carton,divided randomly and we have to colour it with coloured rice.It was fun,but then there's someone annoyed me so much,she's kind but she's freak,totally..phew..The worst part is we finished at 6.00 but the bus came around 7.30 There are two bus,1st is for the desarian,the 2nd is for the cyberian.The lecture said so,but...

grh..

When we just passed the cyberia highway,i didn't even think that the bus will go straight to Limkokwing,i thought they will dropped us in cyberjaya.argh luckily in a few minutes the rapid Kl bus arrived in front of limkokwing.I didn't angry too much..

what an exhausting day..

1st day in Bangkok

next chapter: Bangkok!

Hello guys,the next chapter is bangkok,then after we arrived in Herritage Hotel,our luggages were putted on the hotel cause we couldn't check in,check in time is around 12 o clock,we decided to take a walk around Silom road and we ate a pork porridge,and finally we went to the lake side of bangkok,we payed about 500 bath to rent a boat to side seeing bangkok.We should've go to floating market,but since it's too far we decided to look around.This is the worst part ever,when i was on the boat,i took so many bangkok's panomas but then it crashed suddenly without any partucular reason then my camera won't work till now.Luckily the photos that taken from the very first day still in the memory card.Thank God.Then we went back to the hotel around 12 o clock,but the room still not available.So we ate a duck noodle in front of our hotel.it wasn't really good,we checked in and then we took a nap till the night came through.After asked a few questions about bangkok we decided to go to Suan Lum Night bazar,it's like a night bazar full of clothing stores,they sell so many uniqe clothes with a reasonable price.I bought some t-shirts and then we were take a look around till 11.It so exhausting!then we went back to our hotel..

next story : 2nd day in Bangkok!

Ao Nang

a week a go i had a trip to thailand with my buddies,inge and tita!Thailand was so great,i really like to be there it was a precious gift from my mom and dad,that they let me go to thai.On the first day we stayed at Ao Nang (Krabi) what a small city but full of people,nightlife,activities,etc.I like thai foods it taste really great,like egg pancake,pad thai noodles,tom yum,pineapple fired rice and many more.We took a tour to phi2 island,chicken island,turtle,and i forgot the others.we snorkled twice,we snorkled on the middle of the ocean,we could stand on the stone and the fishes are so variative.We really enjoyed the tour that day,on the second day we took another trip to hong island which cost 1000 bath = 300.000 rp.It wasn't really good,we're bored cause we just sat down on the island and did the sunbathing.Well,we could see animals which look similiar to komodo but it's smaller.Supposedly we took another night in Ao Nang,but since there's nothing to do anymore besides eating,so we decided to take a bus to Bangkok on the third day.It took like maybe 8 hours,and i can't sleep on the bus.Gosh a japanesse girl who sitted beside me was too annoying.She made a small movements which is really-really annoying for me,but then after we arrived in Bangkok,thank God.Cause that trip was make me so weary.Then,we took a taxi to find our hotel,which located in Baan Silom(Silom Road).it's nice,clean and the furnitures are uniqe..

the story to be continued...

;)

cyberians

now i'm layed on my bed and nothing to do.hey!this is weekend!i should've gone somewhere hang out in anywhere.Oh yea,btw im new in town here in Cyberia.Everything looks perfect.Being a cyberian in cyberia is not an easy way,you have to adapt or else you'll feel like you're isolated in nowhere.The gossipers,the dramaqeens,fakers,the giggs,and the couples.Here i always start my new days in e 38 b.

everytime i go home, i always want to say ' home sweet home '

a small room on the 1st floor in this townvilla is the one and only my room,which is the smallest size of other masters or singles and a missing window on my room,what a pity.I always love my small room,even though no space to dance or aerobic.it really cozy for me to sleep,eat and cry here.

We're happy family,even though i'm new here with my old friends tita and inge.They are so kind!with the other housemates yolan and regina.i feel like we're one big family,we have our own characteristics.

I love the foods in here delicious and achievable.Lucky lucky me,i got my room in e 38 b.

Next chapter of the cyberia tales will be continued..

she is

Now we are separated in time and distance

Those memories reminds me of you

it's hard to believe and

when i think about you

i always feel blue

my head said 'you wicked to me'

my heart said 'you're everything to me'

pale and smooth

beauty and innocent

you spout out my thirst

you brighten my days here

like first message i sent it to you

those pucker on your lips

those flat pony

it's truly reminds me of you

what i really want to

i am here alone in a big country Malaysia,here i am studying at limkokwing university.A lot of things and works to do here,i really-really want to make studies in limkokwing so fast,i want to have a good job with a good salary.It's not kind of bullshit i really want to prove to anybody that i am capable of.When life gets hard it means we have to struggle more to adapt.So i won't be the one who eleminate from this hard life.Here i am laying down on my bed,thinking and imagining something fun and different from the other common things.Im not kind of person who easily to adapt on new environment i always think people's responses to me.it's kind a weird but i can't erase it from my mind.Whatever the conds i'll try my best!

for mom and dad

bali

bali trip!

aaaaw!so many to tells to..

well when it wasn't the best trip to bali ever..but it's okay.

I went to bali witth my families,big big families.

the story will be continued tomorrow!

i am sleepy just arrives at home.

open my blogger..at least i wrote something..

hahha..

bye see ya tomorrow!

Appreciation for those fashion people

A trend would've never have endings.I just saw to many people confident with themselves hanging out with a fabulous outfit which good,well sometimes it looks eccentric but it's okay.Sometimes they sacrificing their own money just to buy those label or fashion things.I don't do prada,i don't do louis vuitton,i don't do bally and others glamour labels.I think when they really like it,and they enjoy it to fit on their bodies it's what called fashion and i think fashion is relatives it's just too many types of fashion.Those who really like fashion are all fabulous,cause most likely they are being themselves.

specialty

I just have too many obsession to do with,too many people around me who have something special,specifically a specialty.What do i really want to do is,have one of those specialties.I just want to be myself to be winardi who has my own specialty.I really want to be something different from the others,but it's not an esay way to be like that.It's fine,it's okay for now.The case is i don't have my own salary so i couldn't buy those finner things that i always craving for.

a fact

@Wendy's Senayan city

We were sat down while waiting for the cardio classes in FF Senayan City.So we ordered 2 medium frosties and we ate together.

Smile!

I made an emotical smile in my spoon full of ice cream

Bad!

I made an emotical sad in my spoon full of ice cream

It's like reality

it's all about

heaven

and

hell

Ignes

I was trying to get a pictures of my friend,she's beautiful.Well some people said that she's similiar with Manohara.FASHION that's what people would like to tagged her as a shoppaholic.I choose her because i think she's talented and gifted.I took these pictures in Dapoer.Blue eyeshadows makes sharpen her eyes.I played the tones and the selective coulour.A bit touching and editting process to made these picture.I still need learn a lot to get a better pict!

MCD

WOou!My favorite junk food!It is very very helpful!So me,my bro and my bro's gf was stopped in Mcd Stc,It's about 11 o'clock.We were hungry so each of us ordered three regular french fries because that is the cheapest one,when i took it and brought it into our tables suddenly i realized that the waiter gave me more fries than usually maybe it's because night already.My brother is really really fallen in love with Mcd chili sauce.The crazy plan was suddenly came out through the conversation.He asked me to fill a cup of glass with mcd's chili sauce.Oh God!I didn't want to,but he go through his plan.He act cool and just ignored all the people there.We were so embararassed.But finally he did it!

hyperbole

i feel an emptiness in my heart,as always.i just thought that everything is fine and ok but it was blur,my life is blur right now.I always bare in my mind that whatever people do is fine it's okay it's so simple and every single thing are ignorable.But it's really different than i expect and it's because of one word,

"Hyperbole"

I can't stop thinking.I can't stop imagining.What would happen to every single thing that i ignored?A thousand stupid,weird,odd,good and great things would appear and it's appeared already.It's bothered me,evertime i tried not to think about it,it made everythings worst and it's kinda wasting my whole day and whole life.

seiring waktu masih kuingat

detik detik waktu berputar
cepat secepat kilat
kosong sehampa goa
sendu padam nyala

Tak terasa bumipun menguap
seolah mengucap kalimat
"sampai jumpa"
dan "sampai bertemu"

Masih berat dan pilu
Masih bingung dan takjub
Masih tergores kontras di
dalam dada arti sahabat

Kosong

Apa ia sebetulnya dapat melihat?Atau pura-pura balik punggung tak mau melihat?Ia buat semua jadi semaunya.Ia tak pernah merasakan indahnya jatuh cinta.Semua sudah terlambat,aku tak mau datang hanya untuk pergi,biar waktu nanti yang memberi kesempatan kecil itu.Ia kosong dan masih perawan yang sebentar lagi jadi dewasa beranjak dari usianya.Ia cantik dan mempesona.Beratus janji-janji yang telah kuucapkan padanya.Semoga aku dapet penuhi janjiku dan membawanya pergi ke atas langit.

Thanks

I am afraid i am awkward.God you gave me so many lucks on my life.I'd like to thanks to You God,how big You are.I had wrote too much notes about it.I won't have their attention.I'd like all of them to know,what is my feeling just now.Time will run so fast,within the day that i am afraid of,it's chasing me.I believe on my self,that i will get a better life there.better education.and better social environment.

agenda biruku

Bersykurlah kamu tercipta di dunia ini,sebagai wanita perkasa yang tangguh dan hebat.Semua orang bisa tercengang dengan mulut terbuka melihat kepiawaianmu berbicara mengenai semua hal yang ada di dunia.Kau tau bagaimana berpolitik dan mengkritikKamu jujur dan tulus,mungking orang tak percaya bahwa kau tak pernah berdusta,tapi aku percaya lebih dau itu..Tetes keringat dan darahmu pasti sudah tertuai di sebuah agenda biru dimana tersimpan banyak haru dan canda tawa.Kamu selalu tau dimana nafasmu dan sejauh mana pandanganmu.Setitik air mata tidak cukup membasahi pipi dan dagumu karena itu terlalu mahal bagi kami.Sembari kau berdiri tangguh di depan panggung aku tau kau belajar perbaiki dirimu dan atitutmu,kau harus sedikit bersandiwara,tak bisa benar –benar jadi dirimu.Kamu akan selalu menunggu dan menantang lembar-lembar baru di agenda birumu.Kamupun telah tertulis rapih dan cantik di atas lembaran agenda kehidupan kami.Hebat sungguh hebat ,kau terobos terus apa yang ada di hadapanmu,walau kadang tetes air mata mengalir nakal dari matamu.Semua jenis kehidupan mungkin sudah kamu lalui,dari yang baik dan buruk dari yang indah dan yang jelek.Tato kehidupanmu sudah tercetak rapih dan berwarna sesuai dengan pilihamu.Apapun yang terjadi walau kami terus berpolitik menahan kepergianmu,Saya akan ingat wajah dan jasa yang telah tertoreh dengan tinta emas di dalam lebaran agenda biruku.

We are the true brother and sister!

we are the true brother and sister.She's creative,smart and tentative.Recently she teach me to do something right,about how to be a creative.Honestly it's embarassing,but why should i think like that?it's the way that we can share knowledge and idea.We always do semething crazy, like her blog before called 'crazilicious' If people think that we are weird,cause we like to do something stupid and embarassing,pity them.People wouldn't think about how to pee in the glass above the cupboard?Or how to fight with a milk shaker?that was stupid but it was fun ,i know it sounds freaky and no wonder people seen us as an idiot.FYI we never minds about what people said about us,maybe it's our moto.The world is makes us crazy right now,fight it with your craziness or you will be the true mentally ill people like them suffered in Grogol hospital.

kamu yang berbeda

aku tau kamu sakit,mengapa harus kamu hiraukan kata manis bualan halus dari bibirku?maaf aku salah,terlalu sadis bagimu.Aku hanay lambaikan sepucuk surat untuk seorang hawa yang aku suka.Maaf sayang kamu bukan hawaku,kau berbeda dengannya.Kamu lebih,tapi tak melebihinya untuk saat ini.Perbedaan statuslah yang harus kamu lihat dengan lebar dan luas.Nampak aku tak adil,tetapi aku hanya hakim yang menjalankan tugasku dengan jujur sesuai dengan panggilanku,yaitu yang mulia.Harus kupilih dan kurasuki lebih dalam tentangnnya.Ia masih seperti bulan purnamaku yang muncul setipa hari bukan setap bulan.Kuharap kamu tau dan lihat.Aku tau,saat ini masih terngiang di kepalamu.Tenang aku tak akan meninggalkan mu,kamu memang beda karena aku masih tinggal dalam hati dan benakmu sebagai sahabat yang tersirat.

The incredible Boyle!

The Boyle blinds me with her voice.She's incredibly great.Mom showed me the video after im home a weeks ago.She read about the stunning boyle in kompas newspapper,written on the newspapper 'She was stunning,and Simon gave her a big honest smile to her' Wow!what a big appreciation?When she stood in front of the judges and act like an weird old lady,i was underestimated her,i thought she would make a big joke in front of the judges.But when she had just begun to sing,all people there was astonished!Her voice like an angle sing a prayer to God.It soft as thunder as the lyric that the song she was sing.Mom becomes a big fan of her!Me too,i watched it like a times.

if i capable to

yesterday was so freakin' fun.My tears ran down through my chick and dampened my chin.i felt that it so heavy to leave jakarta,i used to be a happy person.I just met them,they were kind to me.The choices still on my hands,wether i leave or stay.The memories that we had together was too precious.I keep thinking what should i do?with no doubt i choose to leave my stars.I am afraid and a bit excited when the time will come and it's really-really happends.I was so dumb,i let my happiness gone in time gone by,i used to be a happy person in the world because of you guys.I won't let this day drawn so fast.If i stay and sit together with you guys,i feel like i want to stop the time if i capable to.

bingung dan linglung

entah kenapa aku seperti jatuh sakit aku seperti lumpuh,semangatku hilang.kadang naik kadang turun.Semakin hari seiring bergantinya waktu dan musim aku merasa ada sesuatu yang hilang.Aku cari kesana kemari,sulit sekali dicari.Aku berat aku penat.Aku mau mendapat sesuatu yang baru.Aku bingung aku linglung.Mau kukemanakan bintang-bintang timur yang bersinar di atas tali pertemanan seorang aku?tak tahu.Sekali lagi aku bingung aku linglung.Aku duduk berpikir di bawah lentera kecil di atas meja kayuku.Rasanya semua imaginasiku terlempar kesana kemari,seperti ada yang terbang melintasi otakku.Harus jadi apa aku nanti di sana ?pelayan atau pembicara?Keduanya sejalan dengan mata dan otakku.Di mana hubungan erat antara kedunya dengan aku?Malas aku berpikir.Tiap kali kutentukan banyak ocehan banyak sindirian.dan yang terpenting banyak yang belum aku mau tinggalkan.

kamu

dia selalu sindir aku,ia bilang bahwa aku 'sombong' dan 'belagu'.semakin ia mengucapkan sindiran sindiran itu aku semakin tersenyum lebar membayangkan paras wajahnya yang kesal,tapi sebetulnya tidak.dia tahu aku senang dengan menjalani hidupku yang sekarang,walau kadang ia tetap benci karena kehhidupanku membaut komunikasi kami kurang.Aku suka dia,cara ia berbicara dan gerak tubuhnya.Aromanya wangi menusuk hidungku.Ia seperti teh tarik di dalam hidup ku,kadang mengulur aku dan menarik aku.ia menyenangkan dan ceria bila bertemu denganku.ia teman yang baik,suatu hari aku pasti kembali dan penuhi janjiku.

what happened today,and the meaning of a friendship for me..

Friday, November 21, 2008 at 4:23pm

it was over,nothings gonna change my mind..
when the war had just begun,i'dl try to deny
it was all blank
it was motionless..
it looked so calm
when the problems cleared out
it was not just a fantasy
maybe i've cracked this bonds down
is it possible become allies again?
we were in the strained situations
but it's finally has passed
what should i care anymore?
i'll close my mouth
try to be a good boy without any problems.
let's stop this fight
we have get along well
so,let's live in peace

I've learned what people called FRIENDSHIP:
thanks for my friends who have been supporting me all the times
who had a trip together with me.
who bought me nasi uduk today and yesterday and who has a shrill voice *like i do
who always helped me in every lesson, the most diligent people in the class,the most patient people i've ever met.
who always cheer and make joke for me
the prettiest friend i've ever met,the funniest joke i've ever heard..*kidding
for my lovely sociology teacher
who played chess with me today!
who helps me solve all the problems
who made me checkmate today!
the celeverest people in the class.
who reminded me about my zipper today
who love to read comic
a girl who always cheer everyday,with a new bob haircut
who always shouts out loud
who love muse so much
who like ballet
who failed IT in last term
who love skatting
who is very calm
who brought snacks today
our class monitor
who worked the bussiness task with her today
who slept while she sitting *mr.Paul class
who sits beside our class monitor
the person who afraid of fire today
who likes to tease me everyday

*today's tragedy will put something new in our hall of fame
good news miss!
what a flawless class.


thanks guys.
PS:*sorry if there's a wrong grammar hihi.

Luntur

Dulu aku punya baju putih yang kosong tanpa isi,belum tertumpah sablon atau cat lainnya.Baju putih ini adalah kawan akrab ku semenjak aku masih memakai celana biru pendek setiap hari.Seiring berjalannya waktu baju itu bukan berupa putih lagi,tetapi sudah tertumpahkan berbagai cat,tulisan,sablon,dan warna-warna.Anehnya dalam baju putihku ini tidak ada warna hitam.Selalu mengandung warna-warna pelangi yang saling bergradasi.Baju ku ini juga tak pernah tersentuh noda,setiap kali ada noda yang nempel,pasti ngak tahan pengen cepet ngilang.Tapi lama kelamaan seiring bergantinya musim dan tahun bajuku yang penuh dengan warna ini mulai luntur apalagi semenjak terik matahari yang semakin panas dan hujan yang dingin.Tapi walau bajuku ini mulai luntur,aku akan menjaganbya dan kembali mewarnai bajuku.

old friends means strong bonds

I made a lot of friends
I wanna hold them tightly
Every night and days
i always think about them
We are separated
The distance could separate us
but no one could break our bonds